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有一位神，有权能创造宇宙万物，也有温柔双手安慰受伤灵魂
有一位神，有权柄审判一切罪恶，也有慈悲体贴人的软弱

有一位神，我们的神，唯一的神，名叫耶和华
有权威荣光，有恩典慈爱，是昔在今在永在的神


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耶穌喜愛小孩像愛我我我 (2 次 ),
愛小孩像我 '
祂膝上坐 ，
耶穌喜愛小孩像愛我我我。


耶穌喜愛小孩像愛你你你 (2 次 )，
愛小孩像你 '
完全拯救你，
耶穌喜愛小孩像愛你你你。


耶穌喜愛小孩像愛他他他 (2 次 )'
愛小孩像他 '
傳福音給他，
耶穌喜愛小孩像愛他他他。

thank You Lord, for Huijuen

javelin

 
facebook, msn, and even sms seems more scary than safe.
i had no idea that sharing with angie about my prayer on words and conversations would have such a profound effect on life and online activity.


all this and in conjunction with this week's readings on exodus.

God spoke about these two commands
the one about misusing God's name, and the one about false testimony. where false testimony can be anything from telling half truths, withholding the truth, white lies, coming up with tall tales, or twisting the truth

the first two are the ones i struggle over and over again with: telling half truths, and withholding the truth to hide my true intentions and desires.

and maybe, something now tells me that these are not normal and everyone does it so i should.


bel reminded me that Jesus came for the sinners and not the righteous.
am thankful.

i need Him more than yesterday.




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getting the email from pastor dave was a God-send as I was confronted with the above,

"Christian community is both a messy and a beautiful reality. Messy because I’m there and you’re there, bringing into our relationships our sin and insecurities. The beauty of it is realised as God’s grace gives us what we need to live in grace with one another in light of our fallenness. To love one another as He has loved us. To forgive one another as He has forgiven us. To serve one another as He has served us. To partner with one another in the mission God has given His people.

part of the mess and the beauty,"


and so i am, part of the mess and the beauty too. =)











"isn't it better
when we have no words to say
then we know what we say
would be
what we really mean

it really could be better
when we have no words to pray
no words to say
then we know the words we say
would be
what He has to say
then we know the words we pray
would be
what His Spirit is praying,
interceding for us"

 

Lord you have my heart
And I will search for yours
Jesus take my life and lead me on.

Lord, you have my heart
And I will search for yours
Let me be to you a sacrifice.

I will praise you Lord
And I will sing of love come down
And as you show your face
We'll see your glory here.

 
http://walkaboutwithamanda.blogspot.com


"She was talking about the injustice of people dying of cancer and I exclaimed that her compassion for the physically dying is the same compassion I have when I look around this campus and see people dying a spiritual death.

As I looked around I saw several students eating lunch, studying, and chatting with friends totally unaware of eternity. Most of those students are completely apathetic toward Christ. I just couldn’t hold it in. As I kept myself from a complete emotional breakdown I sighed and thought to myself, “what I cannot do, Lord, I am trusting You to do.”

That is the beautiful thing about a surrendered life, I know where my responsibilities and where my will lies. Who, when, and where is not up to me, I am simply requested to be ready for the who, when, and where.

So will you proactively (through prayer and making opportunities) wait upon the Lord with me? "

 
lunch today was blessed by sharing of the lam family's experiences in China; 
dom and i ate a lot (finished the potato chips, uncle blond and aunty jane's chocolates, the mandarin oranges, more chips) 


after lunch ended and we packed up, 
megan, kevyn came in and started running around dom and jeremy, bullying them.

they ran rounds and rounds and dom's pencil case flew around quite a bit. =P 

we got to spend time with phil and wing and yuifai too while their parents were settling some stuff.. all of us gave a shot at carrying phil, and the rest played with phil's jacket.


it was really nice to be able to just spend time with the kids with church friends =) we used to do it a lot more a few years back, playing with the kids while they were still waiting for their parents to finish up. they are always so energetic. 




realised uncle mt's cell group did not get to eat lunch as they were serving fellowship lunch today.
after the kids left and i met liz, realised that the older youth too did not manage to eat lunch.
and if they had taken lunch, the rest of us would not have had our lunches.


sometimes it's the little things that make the biggest differences. =)




thankful for familee, praying that they'll come to know Him as their own Lord and Saviour one day;
in You we trust Lord.

pictionary time

"badminton racket and shuttlecock"
"no, it's a badminton racket and shuttlecock on a table"

"spaghetti"
"no, it's long spaghetti with beef meatballs"

"hey mummy look! it's easier to draw korkor during pictionary, we just add earring to his ear!"





With Hope 
Steven Curtis Chapman 



We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything
God promised us is true, so ...

We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope

learnt this hymn on tuesday
i found it difficult to sing it along with ps j and aunty j as i played and glanced up at them from time to time.
aunty pn's voice rang out so brightly
something happened in me but i don't know how to describe it.


siqi shared some of her observations at sgh while we waited at somerset yesterday.
as much as we've learnt so much about awareness of glossectomy (removal of the tongue), laryngectomy (removal of the larynx and vocal cords), 
it still took me by shock to know there are people who deal with the consequences of these surgeries.
i didn't know what to say.


i wondered if i would still choose the easy way out

i used to think that i was studying what i was studying because i could use it for my own idea of good.
but as the days go by and God humbles me and breaks down my pride and the castles i build in the sky and in my head,
i give thanks for where He's placed me,
and for allowing me to see the real state of my heart is a condition in itself.


thank You for Your grace and love to me.


this week's passage: Genesis (Jacob, Joseph)


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I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.


Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.


Ev'ry step is getting brighter,
As the golden stairs I climb;
Ev'ry burden's getting lighter;
Ev'ry cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining,
There no tear will dim the eyes,
At the ending of the rainbow,
Where the mountains touch the sky.


Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.


I don't know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the One Who feeds the sparrow,
Is the One Who stands by me.
And the path that be my portion,
May be through the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me,
And I'm covered with His blood.



Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand

got this from wiki.

woah =) i never knew central park was so beautiful. =P

 




dropped by secsch places briefly with siling today after her physio session. =)
the chicken shop at coro and then island creamery.

the bandung ice cream had atapchee bits in it!!! =)








 day 5 =)

it was about following Jesus, taking up the cross daily, denying ourselves.

as much as the material was for a new believer.. realised how much it spoke to me again too.
Matt 16:13-28 


Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?

 
saw the younger girls and guys's eyes lighting up when captain's ball came back!! court in the middle =)
i'm really excited (:
i'm amazed by the excitement that i saw in them (: and couldn't help but praise Him.. God is so so good.


heard from joel, dec, constance, natasha, wing today during group discussion.




thank You Lord (:




saw angie off, siling came along this time (: 
we ended up at yakun again, must be her extended family.. whole day yakun only.


really tired..
siling and i fell asleep on the way back towards the west.. (HAHA XI YOU JI!)
i guess it hasn't hit me that angie's gone



really glad..
to know You're our God of wonders beyond our galaxy. =)
to know that You never weary, nor slumber
to know that Your love is steadfast. 



indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God

incomparable, unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God.

met angie in the morning in church yesterday =)
guitar, sharing, prayer.

one thing that really struck me after prayer and sharing and guitar.. was that sometimes, the fears that others share that we feel most affected by.. can actually be our own fears echoed. 


i will trust in You, and i will not be afraid.



 

we went to rich-and-jia-and-elijah's place yesterday, where rich cooked us FUSION food. heh it was really good! but really spicy, so i kinda finished all their peach juice and used a lot of tissue. rich says he's gonna tell my future boyfriend that i love spicy food -_- sabo king! it was really funny because at that point i kinda went oh no in my head, esp if it was serious =P it was quite funny because in my mind was some evil cartoon character like person running around with chilli powder and curry sauce in each hand and secretly putting it in my food and going.. MWAHAHAHAHA. =P



we used jia's comp to check for timings for a movie, and while with jia i asked how they get through.
God provides.. =) it confirmed all the prayers and sharings that we'd had beforehand before going over to their place.. and was a sharing that calmed my own fears


couldn't stop smiling as watching rich and jialing play with jah, or care for him, or whenever jah grabbed onto our fingers and smiled or "ah ah ah eh eh ga!".
okay, when they play with jah it's more like.. laugh until want to cry kind. =P oh man.. so darmb! 


received our Christmas presents =) the piece of GOLD GULD from them with a note, and the box of cookies (which i have almost finished by now, good stuff! eat with milk!)
and as they prayed before we left, thanked God for making us all part of His family!


HOHOHO (geddit?)
my heart really warmed when i saw their little family =)
i think the simple joy that they experience as a family overflowed into my heart too (:
it was precious because i don't think they have it easy, but are always thanking God and overflowing with joy and prayer.




watched A VA TA with the ng sisters =P oh man, i was so afraid someone was gonna throw something at us =P hahaha but it's really funny watching stuff with them, all the things that you want to comment on or the questions you want to ask (even stupid questions) but don't dare to during the movie, they kinda help you say out =P at the parts where you normally will be the only person laughing right.. thank goodness got 2 more next to me laughing =P HEHE.





thanking You Lord,
jeans!

ah bao's quotes =P


 "all about timing... the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable... attainable. Have the patience, wait it out."



pat and stan are really cute =) =)
HIPPO and DOG.

 
Scripture: Job



empty vessels make the most noise.
Lord, please help me to not be an empty vessel.

 
dear Lord,

had quite a bit of time while waiting for ng to finish cell.
felt really tired after cell today.


Isaiah 40.

yw's sharing reminded me what's real and what's true.




really thankful that the new cell carried on on fri 



Lord, please help me overcome my envy, 
please don't let it separate me from You..
where I fall and in my weaknesses You said Your grace is sufficient.

Calloused and bruised/ dazed and confused
My Spirit is left wanting something more
Than my selfish hopes/ and my selfish dreams
I’m lying with my face down on the floor
Cryin out for more
Cryin out for more

So Give me Words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep
Cause I can’t think of anything worth saying
But I know that I owe You my life
So give me Words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep

Every night, every day/ I find that I have nothing I can say
So I stand here in silence, awaiting Your guidance
I’m wanting only Your voice to be heard
Let em be Your Words
Let em be your words

Give me words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep
Cause I can’t think of anything worth saying
But I know that I owe You my life
So give me Words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep

I just don’t understand this life that I’ve been living
I just don’t understand (x2)
I just don’t understand these lies I’ve been believing
I just don’t understand (x2)

So Give me words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep
Cause I can’t think of anything worth saying
But I know that I owe You my life
So give me Words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep

Give me words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep
Cause I can’t think of anything worth saying
But I know that I owe You my life
So give me Words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep

I know I know I owe You my life
ohh my life, ohh my life
I know that I owe You my life